Needing support

I don't know if there is anyone here who has had an abortion but I was hoping there would be someone to talk to about my experience and maybe help me get through it? I have gone to therapists and none seem to really get why I feel guilty and after 2 months still cry on a daily basis. I have terrible dreams and lost my boyfriend because of the decision. I am keeping this anonymous so I don't get people judging me but if you leave a way to contact you I would appreciate it.