Last year today i miscarried at 13 weeks (baby was 9w3d) after ttc/no protection for 4 years. It was heart wrenching and the most painful thing i have gone through in my life .My daughter was so happy to write notes to her baby in heaven me and Daddy wrote one too. I was able to hold it together with only a few stray tears . The lantern went far and when it went so high we couldn't see it my daughter yelled "It just went in to heaven " She yelled happy birthday to baby then we blew off some fire works . It's how I wanted it to happen :) no sadness from my princess only joy because it was babys birthday :) . I'm an emotional mess tonight but that's OK ! I can be strong tomorrow . I am 18 weeks pregnant with baby #3 and doing well I never dreamed of being pregnant again but Iam ( surprise pregnancy) As sceptical as I am I'm pretty sure I will hold this one in my arms .