TTC 2 years after

My husband and I are trying to conceive 2 years post abortion pill that I decided to take at 8 weeks.i was 28 when it happened now I'm 30
We are now on our 6th month trying and I can't help but think(obsess)about that being possibly my only chance or that I'm being punished.literally brings me to tears every month AF comes
Any words of advice?