So, I have bad jealousy issues. I had a toxic relationship with my ex, and I'm afraid it's going to happen with my fiance. I get jealous over stupid stuff all the time. We could be having a fantastic day, then something gets said or done that I don't like and I'm upset.. But I shut everyone out.

I'm struggling with depression and I have a borderline personality. I really just want to be truly happy. I don't believe in therapy, it doesn't do anything for me. I feel so alone in this. I guess I always have. I want to know if anyone else feels the same, or had felt the same and did something to change it?