To cut a long story short, I had a baby aged 20 with a boyfriend I was with 6years. It was long distance-he lived in Ireland and me in UK. He promised me all the time he'd move here but he didn't. He broke my heart when our daughter turned 4 and left Ireland to live in Spain! After this I couldn't face dating anyone and I was a single mum for 6years. Last year I found my current the boyfriend. He was basically my dream guy. He wants all the same things as me. He says he's desperate for a baby but everytime I'm fertile he fails to "finish". Been ttc since October and every month is the same! I'm crying every month because obviously I'm not getting a bfp and he's swearing he wants a baby but his actions suggest otherwise! Just feel so depressed. Everyone around me is getting pregnant without even trying. What's wrong with me. I feel like I'll never get to experience what it's like to have a loving partner there for you throughout whole pregnancy/by your side in labour and after for support. I just feel totally sad and like I'm wasting my time.