I need a hug 🙁

✨Sarah✨ • I`m 29, married for 6 years (together for 11!) and TTC #2. We have a gorgeous 5 year old girl who is starting kindy soon
AF came today. I was so calm and zen this cycle, didn't even take one HPT. Kept telling myself not to stress, and it worked, yet today when I saw AF it still felt like a gut punch. I work around babies, and I love my job, but today being around them made me sad. I held a little cutie who usually makes me smile, but all I could think was "he's not MY baby." Damn.