Any other survivors of childhood abuse? Having a hard time seeing our future right now 😒😭😒

Aly β€’ πŸ’ž mama bear to πŸ’œOlivia 1/23/17 and πŸ’™ Charlie 8/21/18
Any mommies who understand what it's like? I know for a fact that my SO will be a good father and would never EVER do anything like what mine did to me but I'm still having a hard time wrapping my head around what a whole and happy family will look and feel like. I really had been doing well dealing with this until I found out I am pregnant. can anyone relate? 😒😒