I'm 18 weeks + 2 days and I don't know why I do this to myself. I read all these awful, sad stories about women losing their baby at 20 weeks or 30 weeks and having stillbirths. I read sad stories about women who actually have healthy babies and lose them at 4 months to SIDS. I'm so worried that something awful will happen to my baby. 😔😔😔 I love my little boy. 💙😭 I don't want anything to happen to him ever.