Need some advice, prayers, or good vibes sent my way

My boyfriend (now x bf) broke up with me 3 fridays ago.

Let me give y'all a little background... we have been amazing friends since hs then have been bf/gf for 4 1/2 yrs. With his job we travel around which means I have left my hometown and job over and over just to follow him bc I love him. So his last job was in n.carolina and I lasted there 6 mos. Bc usually where we move is BFE so I finally had decided to put myself first come home, get back on my anxiety meds, work, and just get my mind, body, and soul in check. I needed to make myself better for myself then our relationship. For 4 yrs I had put him before myself bc I loved taking care of him. Anywho so take it to 3 fridays ago, everything was fine, so I thought he was coming to pick me up to go to the next job location and ends up breaking up with me. He tells me that he felt betrayed that I left and didn't try to go back with him. In the 6 mos that we were apart he never said anything to me thay he wanted me to come back. I went to visit him for thanksgiving and things were great. From what I understood he was super supportive of me coming home and working and just getting myself right. Then pulls this out of the blue. And he never came out and said "I'm breaking up with you" he tells me "I just need this right now, I need this time" wtf does that mean? I feel like my life is in limbo or on hold. I want to still be with him so do I wait and give him time or is it best to just let it go? I just miss my best friend and partner.