I'm at the stage...

I'm at the stage in ttc that I would do anything at this point to get pregnant and stay pregnant. After 5 mc I can't get pregnant for now over a year. What do I talk to doc about? my age has nothing to do with it. I'm 19 and my tests are all normal. He hasn't had any because he's waiting on ME to make an appointment. I've told him 100 time he just has to go drop off a sample. My doc hasn't called me sense January and even then I was the one who called him. Maybe God doesn't want me to have kids so he's making it really hard for us to even try. Ex: I get pos opks but no egg comes out sometimes every once in a while. The doc is the best doc in the state and is easy to personally contact but for some reason I'm the only person having issues. And third they never call me back so I have to call them. My first doc just dumped me on another doc without doing tests- the lab didn't know what they were supposed to be doing so I left. And an hsg that was perfect. So I think God doesn't want me having kids. So I'm at the point in ttc where I would do anything. We want it so bad. I'm honestly so depressed about it that I don't even want to talk about kids or all I talk about to my so is kids. I would lay in bed crying for hours and only get up when he made me get up because I've been crying for hours. I would do anything for sunfairychrissys reading to come true. I mean anything. But I would like to do it on my own, but that won't happen as we've experienced. So I need to find someone who won't charge us 20,000. So who should like go to? Or what kind of doc? I live in Indianapolis area.