A bitter sweet feeling. Its finally over

So after 6 weeks of knowing my baby had no heartbeat I finally started a natural miscarriage last weekend (Mothers Day of all days) and passed the sac last night. A home pregnancy test is already showing negative. I currently am feeling so all over the place. For the last 6 weeks, right up to the end I had moments where I was still sure it would all be OK and they got it wrong. It should be our 12 week scan tomorrow but instead it will now just be just another day. We never got to make that announcement and it breaks my heart. I'm so jealous of all the pregnancy announcements and baby photos and I feel terrible for feeling that way but it's just not fair, why wasn't I able to keep my baby?!

This was our first and I've recently turned 34 so I'm so scared that time is running away from me.

I just hope that we fall pregnant again soon.

This has been the hardest thing I have ever dealt with and what makes it harder is the feeling of being so alone. Acting like nothing is wrong. Why do we suffer in silence?!