Heartbroken...

They measured little man first and he is doing fabulously...we are so grateful. 

And then they got to our baby girl.  She has had some issues...long and short bones, a really small stomach and so much amniotic fluid.  We had done a genetic test, and no anomalies were found, so we were hoping it was as simple as an obstruction that wasn't allowing her to swallow, and a fairly common surgery would fix that at birth.  This day was supposed to include an ultrasound, a tour of the NICU and an appointment with a surgeon to go over the type of surgery she may need.

Our baby girl no longer had a heartbeat 😢.  Two weeks ago she had a strong one, and now she's gone.  We had set ourselves ready to take care of whatever she may have had, but she's gone.  

They mentioned an amniocentesis to relieve the stress her fluid was causing me.  They took out 3.5 Liters. Physically, I feel a lot more comfortable.

My heart is broken.  Even more so, I know that the birth of our surviving son will be bittersweet, as she will deliver with him.  I can't even wrap my head around re-living the loss all over again.