Hi ladies!

AF is due today, but was a no show this morning (when she usually starts). Usually, if I take a test, getting the bfn doesn't affect me much at all, and I just brush it off, wait for AF, and continue on with my day. For some reason, this month feels different. It's like I'm almost afraid to test to see the negative.

I'm usually a bundle of positivity, especially on here... I always like to show support to those down and discouraged, ready to give up ttc. But this month I may be the one who needs the positive words.

I'll test in a few, with fmu, but it's weird... I'm already feeling sad about the negative. It's totally unlike my personality. I'm always optimistic, and when I've gotten negatives it's just "Okie dokie, not our month, hurry up self, I'm late for work!" Haha.

Maybe getting used to the bfn is catching up to me. Maybe af is coming in a couple days and I'm just hormonal and emotional. Maybe af isn't coming and I'm hormonal and emotional, haha.

Anyway, just wanted to share my thoughts, as I'm normally very positive about negatives, but this morning I don't know if I'm ready for it.