Allowing others to make your decisions

My mother has helped I was at the hospital and got an infection was on pain medication and antibiotics I asked the nurse multiple times if medicine is safe called a pediatrician. They all said it's safe. My mother said it's not safe and I shouldn't breastfeed only formula and I asked her to give me the baby she said no and told me to ask the nurse for formula and I spent the night crying because it was a nightmare a bad decision. I had to decide if the medicine was safe and what to do just it's hard getting my supply up my mother keeps putting formula as number one when I say breastfeeding is important to me she said it's not her fault I don't produce enough but I was fine in the hospital until we suddenly stopped for 24 hours I'm upset

Something else she wanted me to get a Csection and thought it was easy the better way and I let her know it's actually very dangerous risky and well I ended up getting a c section it was dangerous the healing is a pain in the ass. I feel emotional like I want inner strength