Confused ???

Please help im so confused. Last month i bled one day and a half with light flow, medium for around two hours back to light flow then stopped. Since then ive had strong pregnancy symptoms and im continueing to have strong symptoms. Ive had sickness , headaches on/off, lower back ache, cramps, gone off foods, sensitive smells, sore heavy boobs, tied and irritable most of the time. 6days late three tests taken ( 1 cheapie 2 FRER ) all bfn. Then tonight i start bleeding lightly pinkish red ( sorry tmi ). My cervix has remained high soft and vaginal walls have been swollen. I dont get this because why am i having such strong pregnancy symptoms if im not pregnant? Why is my cervix so high and soft as AF is usually low and hard, yet im spotting/ light flow? I generally feel rubbish too. Dont know wether to just give up and say what will be will be its in gods hands and to accept the card ive been delt in life as after 10yrs ttc ive literally had enough and exhausted myself ttc anymore. Dont know if i should Ignore these symptoms move on with life is it in my head because im wanting it so much or do i find the strength to follow up my gut instinct here and see a doctor hoping i wont look stupid and it turns out im definately not pregnant. Im stuck with whats best really im trying to answer questions but confusing myself even more, so if any of this makes sense youve been in this situation and had answers please let me know. All opinions will be very much appreciated thanks. Ps please be honest and tell me straight up what you think even if you think its in my head i wont bite on honesty and will really respect it. Thanks