Does it ever get easier? I'm losing my baby and I know it. I have an ectopic pregnancy and got the medical shit Tuesday and just waiting for the baby to pass knowing I can't do a Damn thing about it. All I want to do is cry. This is my first pregnancy and I feel so helpless. I try to stay strong and put a smile on my face but on the inside I cry. I thought this was it! My miracle baby. Tried 6yrs for this baby and know they are being taken from me. I know it's not my fault and this is gods plan, but why me? Why my baby? When will I feel better? My heart is so broken. I wanted you baby always remember that but God needs you more. I love you always and forever.