I'm in so much pain I just can't even take it anymore it's driving me crazy!!! Writing this down in tears! 😭😭

Why would he let my baby live for 8 weeks && 3daya and that day my baby dies? I don't understand why he would let me go through this pain again!! I just can't take it knowing my baby is DEAD inside of me right now!! I swear I feel my baby but people think I'm and going crazy and that I shouldn't have hope or faith!!! 😭 I DONT blame God at all! I'm just really bad confused.. I want my baby!!! 😭😭😭 I can't handle it!! 😭😭😭  I can't stop crying.. I feel like no one cares... 😭.  Sorry for this.. I just had to let it out!! 😭