Support needed

Feeling incredibly down on myself lately. This pregnancy is my first and very hard mentally to deal with. I've recovered from an eating disorder that I had since childhood and seeing myself get stretch marks everywhere and the added cellulite is making me very depressed. Also noticing spider veins. I'm not eating entirely terrible and my job requires walking all day long. Seeing the scale go up every day and how disgusting I look is taking away from my happiness about having my first baby girl. 😭💔