Venting...

No matter how hard I try, I'm always so angry at my husband. He's being great and patient, but I just can't stop being angry and rude with him. I realize that I'm doing it and still can't - and it's only him. It makes me feel terrible and I end up crying over it everyday. Tonight he told me he wants me to talk to my future sister-in-law, as she's pregnant and has a toddler as well. So he figures she's been thru it before and will help me figure it out. I told him I didn't want to talk to anyone about it, I'd rather figure it out on my own because the feelings are really overwhelming and I just don't want more people involved in my emotional state. So what does he do while he's visiting at their house and I'm at home? Have her text me about it! I'm just so frustrated. I know I'm not treating him nicely, I'm trying to work thru it.... But for me to specifically say I don't want to talk about it with her and then have him ask her to talk to me anyway? I was at home crying and feeling bad for being so rude to him earlier today. But now I'm mad all over again.