Anxiety, help?

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I'm really struggling this week with my mental health. I've dealt with bipolar depression since I was a teenager and was successfully medicated/feeling normal for about three years before I got pregnant. This week has been rough. I was falsely accused of something fairly serious at work, and despite my proof, my accusers have planted that seed... Now I feel like everyone is in on some secret I don't know and it's about me! I've felt like an outcast. Lonely and alienated. Keep telling myself their opinions don't matter as long as I'm right with myself but it's still so uncomfortable and gives me anxiety to the point I feel I'm having a heart attack. 
Tonight, I'm home alone. My husband is staying with family for first day of fishing tomorrow. He showed up to kiss me and left. He knows how much I'm struggling, and the tease of seeing him made everything worse.

I can't stop crying. To the point I've had three panic attacks, or maybe just one long continuous one? 
I can't stop thinking I can't do this anymore. Not suicide but self harm. Because physical pain masks the emotional pain...

I know it's not healthy and everyone's response is "you've got that baby to live for" 
But the anxiety/depression monster doesn't care. It is so blinding. I would do anything to make it stop.

If there are any other mommas out there struggling with mental illness I would love to connect. How do you deal with it?

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I know ppl might look down on this but weed can help if you get the right stain. You don't have to smoke it the have vapors or eatables

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I've had anxiety and panic attacks for as long as I can remember. Therapy has worked wonders for me and I would highly recommend finding a good therapist in your area. Meditation has also helped.  There is something about being in the present moment that changes my fear. Sometimes if my anxiety is really bad, I will write out my absolute worst fears or whatever is causing the anxiety in that moment and read them back to myself. After reading them a couple times, my "true self" will giggle at how outrageous they sound. Often times, I will come up with solutions to the "worst case scenario's." The solutions give me some peace of mind. Positive self talk helps as well. Give yourself credit where credit is due and be kind to your soul. Deep, cleansing breaths accompanied by positive self talk can really create a sense of peace. Take a walk or challenge your fear. If I'm up to it, I will force myself to go out and face the fear head on. I like knowing and feeling in control. Remember that this fear is not your reality and you are safe. You can be in full control of your mind and fear. It WILL get better. Much love and hugs to you. Take care of yourself.

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I know how you feel. I've dealt with anxiety and depression before my pregnancy and my baby's father just left me two weeks ago and it has came back. Its been really hard and my family doesn't seem to understand when I talk about cutting or anything like that. These past two weeks I've found downloading apps with meditation (and completely focus on it) has helped distract myself as well as coloring in adult coloring books or Sudoku. If you need someone to talk, I'm here!

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I'm so sorry to hear you are going threw this rough time. I can definitely relate. I have panick disorder and depression, I also was taking medication which was doing wonders!, at somewhat making me feel "normal", I'm sure you know what I mean, and since I became pregnant I stopped medication. I still suffer till this day with anxiety/panick attacks. What help me is just relaxing on the couch, bed, outside, whichever makes you feel the most relaxed, and I do breathing exercises. I look on YouTube for videos on mindful breathing and it makes a world of a difference when there's nothing else you can do, medicine wise. Give it a try. And I'm not sure if you are religious but prayer always makes a difference as well. I really hope you start feeling well soon.

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I've dealt with both and today was a really really bad day for me. I'm 14 weeks and I've been crying off and on to the point I started cramping a bit and had pink discharge what I found out that helped me was this anxiety coloring book or going out for a walk with my puppy ....can't take meds . So I have to go about it the natural way

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