Healing from my loss.

I miscarried my baby a little over a week ago. Some days I feel better than others. Today my husband and I hung out with some friends who have a newborn baby. Baby was asleep most of the time and right before we left he wakes up and he's the cutest little thing.. I'm honestly truly happy for my friends and their baby but as soon as I left and got in the car I broke down and began to cry. All my friends are happy with their babies and or their pregnancies and God took that happiness from me. Why me? I ask myself.. and the worse part was my husbands reaction... he didn't react and he was no confort.. when I first miscarried he was upset and he cried with me but seems like now he's over it.. through out the night I must admit I had 3 beers and I feel he thinks I'm just being the typical drunk who begins to cry but I am not drunk not even close to being buzz.. I don't know what hurt me more seeing my friend interact with her newborn or my husbands reaction to my pain..