I did something really stupid last night so I turned to my friend for advice and now she hates me for it. She told me I was ruining my life and I'm going down a dark path and I'm pathetic and told me to keep shit like that away from her. I haven't replied to her and I'm so ashamed at myself that I was texting my friend with a 7 month old child, that I was panicking over how many drugs I'd shoved up my nose. I've only ever taken cocaine a few times and it's not a regular thing. I just needed someone to turn to cause I was worried and I stupidly turned to someone that has no interest in drugs whatsoever. I'm such a mess.