Bi-curious

 I've always been attracted to just men in real life. Recently I have a new friend who I'm sort of attracted to...she'll ask me to help her with her shirt or whatever when she's got a meeting to go to or I'll have to lean over her to look at something on her computer and I ALWAYS get an eyeful of her big beautiful breasts and I find myself staring a bit too long. She's very self conscious of them bc she's got stretch marks/scars from surgeries which she has shown me before but I think she's beautiful. When we hug each other, it seems like she's pushing into me more than normal. I know I don't want a relationship with her but I find myself fantasizing about ripping the buttons off her shirt, cupping those breasts and licking, kissing and sucking them while I'm rubbing my body against hers to pin her down and fingering her. I don't know if it's just sexual frustration manifesting bc it's been almost two years since I've had sex or what but damn...I've always loved girl on girl porn and threesome porn too so maybe I really am curious what sex with a woman would really be like...idk