So I have two children girl and boy 8 and 6 and my husband always wanted one more which I on the other hand was quite fine with two...due to the fact that I felt like I raised them on my own...he never got up in the middle of the night shoot he didn't give my son a bath until he was three I did everything around the house because I felt hey he is the provider this is what I have to do ( I grew up with my grandmother and my great grandparents lived across the street) and this is pretty much how I seen it done)

so now with them being a little older and a little more self efficient i thought that hey I can go back to school finish getting my accounting degree without having to pay the expensive cost of child care on top of tuition and now I feel like im going to be stuck in the house for another five yrs with just the tasks of cooking and cleaning...I mean I'm 28 and was feeling like ok I'm not to old to go back but now by the time I go back I'll be 33 like he has goals and I stuck behind him and sacraficed my life to help him get where he wants but where is the sacraficed for me??? He will complain about he will only have a few hours asleep and be up with baby if i go to school in the morning I'm like OK there are countless days where I didn't sleep at all and had to get up and handle everything but you can't do the same for me??? I don't know his actions are really making me resent him and makes me wish I never was pregnant (cant help being excited for the baby) but scarred of what's to come after he wants me to be in this house he feels like if I become successful I will leave him ( which I have thought about) but shouldn't that make him changes his ways...i hate having to depend on a man I want my own success and my own career..sorry ladies but I just been on emotional roller coaster and since I have no one to talk to I felt this is the only way to release it lol thanks for listening