Totally Bummed

I'm a disabled veteran and I receive payments because of it. I was excited because I figured that I could stay home with baby which would be a first and it's my first breastfed baby of four. Unfortunately my S/O other keeps quitting jobs because he doesn't like them and now I HAVE to go to work in order to make sure our bills all get paid. Six weeks just doesn't seem like enough bonding time and I really wanted to stay home until he's two because that's how long I plan to breastfeed. If he would stay employed We actually would be able to pay our bills and everything. I'm just so bummed out that I'm being robbed of time with my little guy. I hated missing out on the young years with my other children and now I'm missing out on his too. 😔