Reluctant bjs for so

Malyssa • What's life without a little fun?!?!😘
So my SO and I have been together for almost 7 yrs and at first I had no problem going to town for him, but after these last couple years I feel like it's just a chore....like I can't stand to do it for him...and there is no such thing as reciprocating the act unless he's been drinking...how do I get over this feeling of basic dread over bjs!?