failed round 3, deflated

💞SuE💞 • 39/ TTC#1 4 rounds of clomid at 25mg. 1 round of ivf/fet failed dec16. 2nd round fresh failed 14feb17. fet in april17
it's day 28 of the cycle and I start feeling headaches and back aches. I usually get these when my period is due and I got that strong inkling that AF was due. Meaning my 4 weeks of pregnancy ( as my app would have me believe) was over. Half an hour later AF was here. Thinned out due to clomid cycles but here non the less. I'm feeling so disappointed. I really hoped this was it... I really hoped so, I thought the due date being my Gibbs birthday was a sign. It had to have been... 24th jan is his birthday and that's my due date if this round worked... it must have been a sign right? but alas no, hopes dashed and app reset to day 1. I'm about to go to turkey for a holiday in a few hours  , periods in toe. Luckily I planned ahead and I'll be taking my clomid round 4 pills and most likely this will be last round before going to <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a>. I have <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> scheduled for june and July so that's it with clomid. I'm getting old... 38 and counting and I don't think <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">iui</a> is right for me. Really trying to make the right decisions for me, I really want a baby. why is it this hard????