To much thinking

Anyone thought so much that sometimes u thought that having a baby would ruin your life ... There's days when I'm thinking way to much about if I should keep my baby or not... Then I just think about being there for her cause she (the baby) has nth to do with my issues .. I just feel like when I got pregnant I would be with the one I'm pregnant by but his is overly disrespectful... Hurts my heart 😢 FTM