Not my choice..

Sarah • Mixed (Ivorian and Lebanese), Proud Muslim and afraid FTM..
From the begining of my pregnancy I said I am going all natural, no medication, no c section, no epidural.. Just a normal vaginal delivery and here we are at 38 baby still in breech and do not have enough water.. My Obgyn said Emergency C-section tomorrow I said please let it be monday so I can be ready not shocked with the news he agreed so I'm going to be a mum Monday IF its God will and I survived (thinking of death all the time).. I am not disappointed neither sad I am just overwhelmed and scared.. And I THOUGHT that I will be a "less deserving " mom title if delivering this way but it wasn't in my hand and after all this hard months all I want is a safe delivery and a healthy kid.. Please pray for me I need strength, all the angels in the skies and good vibes.. Hope for a happy ending..