my story of loss

April

Hello ladies. I thought I would share how my hubby & I lost our first. Made it to 37 weeks before anything Was wrong at that time our midWife became Concerned about pre- ecmpsyia . after a night in the hospital. we had an ultrasound done . it showed Baby had not grown properly & her Bones weren't right . we had to have an emergency C-section. which was the one thing I had hoped to avoid. It wasn't a normal C-section either my incision is right under my navel. our sweet girl would be 17 months now. She lived for about one hour. We were Completely blindsided & it has been so hard as two of my Cousins had babies that year. Anyway, we found out it is a rare genetic disorder & we now have a 1 in 4 chance of it happening again.

The part I struggle with is how powerless I feel now. we will never get to have a home birth and the disorder is always lethal to the fetus, but it Cannot be diagnosed until 22-28 weeks. Hubby & I have decided to try again later this summer. It is terrifying & exciting.

Sadly any form of child loss is often made out to be our fault as women. It is important every woman gets the chance to share her story.