Why do I always feel so sad all the time? When will this hopelessness go away? Will I ever be able to get past this? Lost my baby at 19 weeks due to PPROM. It's not fair. He was perfect. Why would God punish me this way? What did I do to cause this? So many questions, very little answers.

I see pregnant people all around me daily, and I can't help but wonder why they get to have a baby and not me. My bestfriend is pregnant, I'm incapable of feeling excited and happy for her. My constant sadness might ruin our friendship. She will probably feel like she's walking on eggshells everytime she's near me. It's not intentional, I just feel myself sinking into depression. Sigh. :'(

-Depressed.