Hey ladies/gents. Wasn't sure where to post this but this thing stuck in my head is really messing up my life.. I just turned 18 in April. On January 20th I was sexually abused of after a dance. I ended up pregnant I was given the option to abort but I could not take the life from the little human being inside of me; I'm currently 18 weeks and have completely fallen in love with my little one. The problem I'm having is I wake up in the middle of the night in tears due to nightmares. I keep having nightmares of being sexually harassed and abused. Everywhere I go something has to remind me of that night and my mood instantly changed and I either burst in tears or freak out and get angry with myself. I quit my job in March in fear of this guy comming in. Every time I see a white single cab pickup I run and hide. (His pickup is where it happened) A report was made but the detective seemed to have made a decision on her own and not take me seriously. She continuously asked why I did not push him or try to get away. The reason I did not do so was he had his hand around my throat. If I had done anything to get away that might have been my last day on this earth. I didn't know what was going on. I was frightened. All I can seem to do now is blame myself for the incident when I should know it was not my fault. My mom wants me to seek help with a therapist but I just can't..