Vent, sorry.

I hate myself, I literally hate every single thing about myself. All of my friends are skinny and their husbands are all over them all the time. I'm overweight and my husband rarely ever touches me. We aren't unhappy emotionally or physically, but we are defiantly sexually. I'm unhappy with myself and as much as I say I'm going to try to change it, I won't. I wish I had the motivation to change myself but I don't. I don't even like to look in the mirror, I literally avoid looking at myself. I can sit here and vent but it won't change a damn thing. My mom brings up my weight constantly, she tells me how I need to lose weight and if I don't make a change I'll be just like everyone else in our family. It depresses me. I think I'm becoming unattractive to my husband as well. We never have sex, he says he is too tired all the time but I feel like it's because of my appearance. I am disgusting, I disgust myself. Sorry for the vent. 
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Ka

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You gotta start loving yourself before most of what you're upset about will change. Yeah , it's really hard, but take it one day at a time. You have to want it though. I say give yourself a week or two and be upset. Then get yourself over the pity party, and start to make some real changes. You live once. Why would you waste it on being so negative and unhappy ?! You're going to wake up tomorrow and be 70 and think "where the fuck did the time go? Why did I spend most of my life hating myself ?! For what?! " You got this ! 

Mo

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I am so sorry that you feel as such. I will be praying for you. You must speak life into the things you want to see happen. Ask God for motivation. You have to seek it. Pray for comfort, self esteem and happiness. Talk to your husband & let him know how you feel. I do hope everytging gets better. 💕

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You gotta get comfortable with yourself before any change starts to happen. Love yourself. This is the body you were given, the body you've lived your life in. Look at yourself in the mirror with confidence and patience and know that you're beautiful to your husband if not he wouldn't have married you. Sometimes they sense our insecurities and it turns them off. You should ask him what's up though.. Anyways it doesn't matter if you don't look like your friends. It matters that you love and value yourself no matte how you look. Tell your mom you're working on it and make her bump off. I grew up with a mom like that too and the best way I've gone about it is by just being 100% with her. "Mom, I appreciate your concern but I'm honestly just trying to work on myself right now and I don't need the extra pressure."

Ar

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Girl stop thinking like that. Instead of avoiding urself u need to keep looking at urself. Stare at urself in the mirror and realize the unique beauty u have. There is literally nothing wrong with anyone's body unless it's fake. Put on some sexy clothes and let urself feel sexy and free. I really hope ur self confidence builds up eventually ❤️