Backstory: I have two beautiful boys, both born via csection. First son was an emergency due to heart rate and passing meconium inside. Second was scheduled with a normal seeming pregnancy, but he had a birth defect and was flown in a helicopter to a hospital in another city for treatment.

This time I am pregnant with a baby girl and thank God everything is looking ok with her. But I'm struggling with another csection because all I can think about is the way it felt being paralyzed on a table not even able to hold my child. I start too shake and cry and want to try natural so I can at least hold my baby.. My hospital supports vbac but my doctor won't let me and is pressuring me to schedule a csection before I'm even due. Should I switch providers? I'm 24 weeks and not sure what to do