Another no...

8 years since I married my husband.

5 years since Doctors told me that all the tests they took on both of us came back normal. Also 5 years since they told me I was too fat to be given any fertility help (I was less than I am now). So many ovulation kits used and all saying I surge at the right time... still no baby. Today, I took a pregnancy test, since I am experiencing symptoms not anywhere near my normal pms (which is normally just feeling tired btw), but alas... another no. Always a no... the military is taking him away soon... for years. Maybe it is a good thing. Maybe it is time to move on. I have two sons from another relationship, maybe my 20 years worth of dreams of a daughter were just selfish and stupid. I don't want pitty, there are no words or answers that can help at this point, I just needed to type this all out so I could silently cry before going to bed knowing the same freaking dreams will torture me again. Good night people. I pray you all get your dreams, even if I don't.