Today I did something I never in a million years thought I would be capable of doing.. A couple hours ago I terminated my pregnancy. The ONLY reason I made this horrible and extremely hard decision is because of my health. I have an unknown heart condition that has been affecting me since the beginning of the year, my doctors have all warned me how dangerous it was to my health to move forward with my pregnancy. Not knowing if my heart could handle creating life while trying to keep myself alive. I have a murmur, along with an unknown disease which involve symptoms such as - a racing heart for no reason, lightheaded and dizziness, and sometimes blacking out with no warning. It got so bad I was driving to work one day and the next thing I knew I had hit a jersey wall on the highway totaling my car (thankfully I had not hit anyone else and I walked away with minor bruises & scratches as well as a fractured wrist. But the fact that I had NO warning I was about to black out and I had an accident, the state took my liscence away until I am cleared by my cardiologist to drive safely. All of these things contributed to me making this gut wrenching decision to terminate my baby's life. Not being able to do a thing about my heart condition until after birth, not being able to drive as a new mom, and the added stress on my mind of what COULD happen to either myself or my baby, (while being only 20 years old and unmarried) made my choice for me. I know God will punish my in some way, I just pray it not be that I become infernal or can't have children in the future. Please keep the hate away as I already know how most people feel about abortion, I just needed to vent and get this off of my chest even a little bit. I already feel like a worthless piece of crap for doing what I did.. But I did what I felt was best .. How could I raise a child without getting myself healthy first?