Not sleeping :(

So last night I didn't get to sleep until about 4 am and this morning I woke up at 6 and it is currently 7:30 and I can't get back to sleep. I am supposed to be going to a birthday party today..I say supposed to because if my sister's decide to try to tell me "oh I know we talked about it but I don't feel like driving to get you guys today" (happens quite often and normally I am ok with it) today is supposed to be 118° and I've been in and out of the hospital this week because of bleeding (still no reason as to why btw) and I also have a 2 year old and a 7 year old and buses on weekends run every hour so it takes about 4 hours to get there by bus...but 30 minutes by car and freeway...sorry but I am not putting my kids and my life and unborn babies life at risk for a party filled with people I don't know and drinking idiots.