Overwhelmed

Tatyana • mother to a beautiful baby boy. engaged . 21 y/o
im 35/5 weeks pregnant.. About a week ago my sister in law, and mother of two (4&8months) got into an accident. She burned the entire left side of her body. So not having anyone to take care of the kids while she was at the hospital.. I took them in. For a week i had two small children. Who need constant attention of course. And compared to what my sister is going through this is nothing. But at 35 weeks im completely exhausted. Having to take care of two small children who cry constatntly and if they dont get what they want when they want it they cry.. A 4year old who curses at me. And tell me no every single time i ask him to pick up after himself, or hits me when i make him do something he just doesn't want to do. A 8month old who wont let me sleep . who doesnt like when i walk into another room and starts screamming bloody murder. Who doesnt let me eat . talk or even shower by myself.. Who is so cute dont get me wrong. I love them so much. But they are so set in there ways that they simply wont let me take care of them. And on top of that. My sister in law came out the hospital. But needs to be taken care of. Needs help walking around the house. Dressing her wounds, cleaning her up. Giving her sponge baths and cooking her food. Helping her do everything because she simply cannot. And her husband has to work. So here i am.. Taking care of not only myself, my husband, my & father inlaw who already live in my house. But my sister in laws 4year old 8month old &her .. Ive cried to myself about 5times already. Im so physically exhausted. Ive never been so tired in my life. So overwhelmed. So mentally drained.. Having to take care of so many people. Not having any time to relax and enjoy the end of my pregnancy. .. Not being able to do anything for myself .. While i dont want anyone to think im complaining because i really dont want to sound like im being selfish. Im just trying sooo hard to help. I cant find time to find anyone to help me. My husband works. My father in law works. Her husband works. I have both her kids. And now i have her too. I feel like ive become a nurse and mom of two all at once.. Im just so damn tired. I dont know how to handle it any more. I feel like a walking zombie . im scared ill go into labor to early and her not have anyone to help her for a while. Hiw can i help her when i have to give birth. And then take care of both her kids. Plus my own child who needs me. Plus her. I dont know what to do anymore. 😞😢😥😫 sorry for the rant i just need to vent. If anyone had some advice that might help me i would gladly appreciate it.