😥 feeling sad

Steffi • Have 3 amazing children. 2yrs-14yrs . X
So af is now 4 days late, but still bfn. 😰
Was so sure we cracked it this month. 
Is this the menapause or stress. Abusive ex has been very nasty this week refused to return my eldest son. He is back now thankfully 24 hrs late. He is not paying any maintenance but just bout a new sports car!! I start back at work a job a loath next week after a year off on maternity leave. 
Loosing the will to keep trying but would love Oliver to have a sibling near his age and my partner to have another child he longs for. 
Fingers crossed.Â