My house is an absolute mess. I have been trying to clean it little by little but the problem with that is I find myself starting over and over at the same spot . I will clean the kitchen and living room... Next day I would plan to clean some other rooms but by then the living room and kitchen are a mess again. I just can't keep up. I have no family to help.. They love far away.. No friends and don't have extra money for a cleaning service . My hubby doesn't help... He's stressing about financials right now so I can't even talk to him about me feeling stressed bc he feels his stress is more important and doesn't want to hear it bc in his mind I think he thinks I sit on the couch most of the day.. Which don't get me wrong I do spend a lot of time on the couch lately bc I am feeling depressed and I'm just feeling like giving up on doing what I have to do. 

I don't even have everything I need for baby and I don't have a hospital bag packed and I just seriously feel like I have a million things to do and I can't do them. My blood pressure was up last appointment and it's probably bc I am stressing so bad!!