Venting

I need to say this to someone out there somewhere because if not I'm going to burst. 
I was working on my body before getting pregnant. I started when I weighed 318.8 pounds the heaviest I have ever been in all my life. I got scared because doctor told me my A1C levels were a 6.7 and she told me I was basically considered diabetic in some charts but that she was giving me a chance to work on it. I joined weight watchers and started working out daily. 
By the middle of May I was down to 293.2 which made me very excited and with me exercising it made my sex drive more. I had been diagnosed before with PCOS and I didn't think things would happen considering I was heavier than I was when I conceived my first daughter. So we just went with it and celebrated our love with a lot of love making. 
I didn't know or even imagine that I would end up pregnant. I have always been plus size and I love who I am. I've decided that I'm going to keep working out and keep eating the way I did before regardless of being pregnant. But instead of receiving support from the people that I love they've all been so negative in regards to my health issues. (By the way my A1C is now a 5.5) 
Someone whom I thought was truly excited for my new blessing just told me that I didn't even look pregnant with my daughter. That it wasn't even apparent so that maybe I should consider doing what I'm doing. I don't know why I'm bawling but I almost lost my life with her because of my high BP then and I am so nervous and worried with this one. 
I just wonder what did I get myself into and I can't blame this little baby growing inside me. Yet I can't talk to anyone about it because it comes out one way or another and I don't want anyone upset with the other. 
So sorry I needed to get this out. 
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Ca

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Any amount of weight loss can help with pcos and related infertility. I'm sorry so many of them are being horrible. I currently weigh 220, I was in the upper 240's and started losing weight, under 230 is when my body decided it would ovulate again. And I'm currently 19 weeks and 6 days with my second. My goal was to get under 200 before getting pregnant. This time I'm trying to eat better, and exercise and just let it be.Sour people will always be sour and try to make you feel bad. Congratulations on the new baby.

Ka

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In January, I weighed 310lbs, I'm 5'5. After ttc for 7 months, I decided to start doing something about it to improve our chances! I started slimming world on the 20th January, and we conceived within about a month!! Found out on March 21st that I was 4 weeks pregnant!! I'm still doing slimming world, and after 5 months of doing it, I'm now 4 stone (56lbs) lighter!!! Got more energy, and feel great! Still a long way to go, but I'm not in a rush to do it whilst carrying my first baby :-) I've done it by gentle exercise (walking, etc), and changing eating habits! I'm now 18 weeks + 4 days pregnant <3 Big congratulations to you!! And wishing you a healthy pregnancy :-) x

Co

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I also was on a weight loss plan when I got pregnant with my son. I had lost 87 lbs and was so proud and wanted to show off my awesome new body (I was still 210 lbs after losing) but I was proud and my husband and I got pregnant I was showing very obviously with my son but was still "obese" and ended up with preeclampsia I started to gain weight again after him and got to 264 when I found out I was pregnant with my daughter I had a lot of people questioning why I would get pregnant and even some that said things like well don't wear stripes! It really upsets me I try every thing in the book to not look like I have a "b belly" but I just don't have w pregnant look people are so cruel. We fight every day to keep our babies safe and it all gets over looked because we aren't the typical pregnant look

Co

Courtney • Jun 11, 2016
You're doing great! I don't even walk 1 mile go you! I do good to keep my Bp normal lol but yes we go above and beyond for our babies! as long as we are focused on them

Ka

Karina • Jun 11, 2016
Our best for our babies!!

Ka

Karina • Jun 11, 2016
Exactly I feel like I've been fighting this battle since my daughter. I protect her the best that I can and now that I'm pregnant again does it really matter other than I'm trying to stay as healthy as I still can. I walk everyday even if it is just three miles. What is it to anyone we are doing