Venting

I was working on my body before getting pregnant. I started when I weighed 318.8 pounds the heaviest I have ever been in all my life. I got scared because doctor told me my A1C levels were a 6.7 and she told me I was basically considered diabetic in some charts but that she was giving me a chance to work on it. I joined weight watchers and started working out daily. 

By the middle of May I was down to 293.2 which made me very excited and with me exercising it made my sex drive more. I had been diagnosed before with PCOS and I didn't think things would happen considering I was heavier than I was when I conceived my first daughter. So we just went with it and celebrated our love with a lot of love making. 

I didn't know or even imagine that I would end up pregnant. I have always been plus size and I love who I am. I've decided that I'm going to keep working out and keep eating the way I did before regardless of being pregnant. But instead of receiving support from the people that I love they've all been so negative in regards to my health issues. (By the way my A1C is now a 5.5) 

Someone whom I thought was truly excited for my new blessing just told me that I didn't even look pregnant with my daughter. That it wasn't even apparent so that maybe I should consider doing what I'm doing. I don't know why I'm bawling but I almost lost my life with her because of my high BP then and I am so nervous and worried with this one. 

I just wonder what did I get myself into and I can't blame this little baby growing inside me. Yet I can't talk to anyone about it because it comes out one way or another and I don't want anyone upset with the other. 

So sorry I needed to get this out.