Why I couldn't go through with the abortion
When I first found out I was pregnant at 7 weeks and 4 days I thought I couldn't do it. How my parents and everyone would feel. I felt like a giant disappointment. I'm the youngest of 7 and I'm only 19 first year in college.
I told my family that were pregnant that I was too and I wasn't sure how to handle it.
I wanted to wait until I was at least 25 with someone who loves me not someone who said he'll pay half to have an abortion.
I told me parents when they got home from Vegas. My dad told me I threw away my life. I felt like they were all disappointed me. That I really did threw away my future because I have no single moms who made it in life.
My due date is December 6. The same day my nephew Samuel passed away at 8 months. I felt as if I couldn't do it. I couldn't be a good mother that my child is going to hate me because he'll never know who his dad is.
I went to visit him in the cemetery and I just cried. A lady came up to me and said everything works out for the best and maybe this is God giving your family another chance in life to be happy.
I cried for 2 weeks straight. At school I went into the restroom to throw up. And I cried thinking how I can I be a mom. I smoked until I found out I was pregnant. Two girls came up to me. One gave me a letter and the other let me cry on her shoulder. I haven't even cried to my friends because I feel so week if I do.
I'm scared for the future. But with the help of my family. And my sister coming out of prison after 10 years I believe I can do this. I don't need the one who helped create this blessing. I need people who will be a positive influence in my baby's life.
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