I told my Mom and she killed...

NIKKI
Rant: I'm 28 years old, been married to my dh for 9 years, together for 10. We have been ttc #4 for 6 years since we only have 1 child together. We were so excited when we got our BFP Sunday! I wanted to tell my mom whose bipolar and schizophrenia. Diagnosed with both but its not severe. I never treated her differently and often forgot about her condition. So today I asked her to have lunch with me, when she picked me up I told her and her response was detrimental! She frowned at the pregnancy test pic like she was looking at something awful. I'm her first and she's always been over protected of me as a child and still treats me like one bt I never saw this coming. Just 3 Christmas's ago she was saying my hubby and I needed to have a girl. So we're in the car and she's saying you don't need another baby that's too much on you, you got 3 and a dog. I said Mom, why would say that to me?! I'm married and its not too much I have tons of support. Our oldest are teenagers so it wouldn't be any stress on me like I have a bunch of little babies and if I did so what, I'd handle it with my husband. So then she says we gotta get the baby out of you. I couldn't believe what I heard!!! I told my Mom im having her fourth grandchild and she tried to damn near kill us! I yelled are you speaking of a miscarriage on me?! She played it off saying no, no, smiling then it happened. She turned the corner and said we'll just go over the hill! She went flying down a hill going like 50mph, I'm afraid of heights, I was terrified, I couldn't help but start to cry with so many emotions going on inside me and I caught a migraine, ugh! I wanted to catch a uber back home. After she saw I was upset she flipped the script and started acting happy about the news saying oh you're having a girl wow. I felt like I was with freddy Kruger, a nut job, I have blocked her number and I can't talk to her while carrying our last baby. It's too much stress! I really hate she took me out of a proud, happy and exciting place I was in for a moment. Hours later I spoke to my sister and mother in law and they were excited and told us congratulations. I'm still excited, I just gotta knock this migrane in stuck withand the fact that I have a fucked up mother, sigh.