Baby shower!!

It's been 3 long months since I had a miscarriage. Two of my other friends were pregnant at the same time. One of my friends is 8months and the other 6 1/2. This weekend I went to one of there baby showers and seeing her belly made me so sad. I was very happy for her but I still felt empty. Now next month I have to help plan a baby shower for the other friend. She was only 2 months a head of me. My feeling is so hurt because I wasn't to go through this with her. But I have to be happy for her at this time. Oh how I'm not ready for another baby shower. God give me the strength!!!😔😔