What's your view on love?

I believe you can Only ever be "Inlove" once. The reason I believe this is because when I was in high school there was a guy that I crushed on from 6th grade all they way through highschool. We never dated in school but I took his virginity(he didn't take mine) but he was the 1st guy I cared about that I had sex with. We have hung out several times after high school, he's always been able to cause problems in relationships I've had, not by his doing, but because I can't get over him. Here I am 30yrs old, we haven't hung out in 6yrs and he's still all I think about. I don't know why, I've dated other guys and I just can't seem to care about them on the level that I care about him.