Rape or not

Hey, guys basically I met a guy yesterday and well I gave him oral sex which I didn't mind but I wasn't and didn't want to actually have sex which I told him already but he couldn't control his self so he put it in with so much force not even slowly (note I have only had sex with one guy and that is like 6 months ago so I'm very tight). Which really hurt I kept saying no stop I don't feel like it&trying to push him while crying but he didn't stop he just carry on till after 1 or 2 mins till I actually push him off I have been crying because I feel dirty&slutty about it now I don't think I can trust guys after that I dunno what to do I told my closest friend but I still feel dirty and also don't know if this is rape or not plus I was bleeding after that too and feel so much pain.