Wind knocked right out of me!

Selina
So yesterday was a bummer day! But we decided to go see finding dori 
To cheers us up.. And we pull up and my phone notify a been that we have officially been trying unsecsessfully for 3 damn years! 
I feel like I'm gonna loose my mind!
My husband and I just pretty much gave up last night got some beer and a pack of cigarettes and a deck of cards and just 
Did 
Everything ur not supposed to do to be healthy ! 
I'm starting to wonder if a miracle will have  for everyone but me. I can't handle any more negatives honestly ! 
I have money. I could adopt or get some freaky medical procedure .. My husband wants to do this naturally but the wait is becoming way to much for me!
I was diagnosed with pcos and according to the docs it's not likely for me anyway 
I am so done girls:(