Will I step on the damn scale. Idk why I do this to myself, I had my son on 2/19 and had lost like 30lbs (I'm 5'0 and only gained 8 lbs) but I started at 194 so I'm not a small girl but I was so excited to be down to the 180 and I'm breastfeeding and thought hey I'll lose more weight. Wrong. I'm officially At 200 and I feel so gross, i know I don't eat the greatest as my son is going through sleep regression also I have an autistic 6 yr old. I'm so exhausted and coffee/caffeine are my lifelines. Moral of the story I found myself crying in the shower hiding from my kids. And texting my husband hoping he still finds me sexy. Ugh. First after baby breakdown.