Confused.. Options , abortion , keep.. Idk help

Haylee
Hello there I'm a 20 year old mother of a 3 1/2 year old wonderful boy well I'm 9 weeks pregnant but the sad thin is the man I thought who loved me and was going to be there for me cheated on me and broke my heart so I'm left to do this all on my own again I'm so stressed and scared idk what I should do I'm a medical assistant trying to find work I live with my parents still.. I can't do adoption for a few personal reasons and my two options are abortion or go through I'm scared my son won't get enough love I'm scared this baby won't get enough love I'm scared on how it will be how my son is my everything just please any advice helps !