Anorexic to secret eating

So I use to have an eating disorder where I ate nothing at all, it got to a point where I was eating ice cubes to confuse my body. I got over that and slowly put the weight back on and began to eat more. Now I'm the complete opposite! I binge eat and have a lot of take always. I've gained so much weight and I'm really unhappy with myself, before I eat I get really excited and then instantly regret it when I'm finished. I have a serious problem and I don't know how to stop 😭